Race time...to early

I woke up this morning to some light rain on the window and thinking, this would be a nice day to not do anything until I realized it was Tuesday and my first race is in 5 days! Augh. I am not ready. Ok, so most people say that before their first race, but I really am not ready. As of now I am going to just wing it. I haven't been in the pool for 2 weeks now, but I have been in the lake several times, lol. The swim I am not to worried about because I don't really try at that anyway. I basically just get in, go, and try to avoid all havoc. After the race, I always think, why didn't you swim faster? but that is the extent of that. The bike I am feel very confident with except I am nervous about my wheel set choice. Basically because I haven't had much chance to ride both my 808 front and disc wheel combo in any windy conditions. I am hoping it isnt windy. The run I am very very very nervous about. I ran yesterday and felt like complete crap. That could have been from the 3 days of drinking, being very dehydrated and lack of sleep. I just felt very stiff, achy and anxious. I am trying to not think of the race this weekend because I can't really do anything to benefit my situation this week other than maybe some extra time in the pool to work on my stroke, but that is about it. I got all of my gear out and it is now in a big pile on my floor. I need to get it organized and work through my transitions. I don't think I have been this nervous for a race ever. All of my other first season races were sprints. If this was a sprint, I would not worry at all. It is the extra 3 mile run at the end that I am dreading. I am thankful that I have raced at this venue before so I know the terrain and I know it is flat so that helps. I need to get organized. My brain is jumping from one thing to another. Focus.
Other workouts for the weekend: Friday - nothing. Slept. Saturday I got up "early" and headed out on the bike. Was going to do 4 hours. I headed north of town, up through Ankeny, Slater and then to Huxley. I have never gone through Slater before. I was pleasantly surprised to find a bike lane heading north out of Slater. As I headed north out of slater, the wind suddenly shifted from a nice 5mph wind out of the southwest to a 15mph wind out of the Northeast. This made it tough going. I got half way between Huxley and Slater when the bike lane ended and the road turned to complete shit. Bumb after bumb after hole. It was so miserable. I got to 1:45 and decided to turn back. That would still be a 3:30 bike. I turned back. With the wind pushing me back, I was moving at a pretty good clip. The bumbs were horrible. It was like riding across the road rumple strips. I thought my arms were going to fall off. I made it home for a total of 3:08 ride. I was booking on the way back. It was awesome. I quickly transitioned to a short 10 min run. My legs hurt, I was very stiff. I got home and stretched. Finally my legs were feeling better from wed and thurs. Spent all day Sunday on the boat, which was so much fun. Monday I slept most of the morning and then watched a movie. Went back to bed and got up and decided I really needed to run. Went for a 45 min run. Longest one yet. I felt good after about 2 miles. I was so dehydrated. It was kind of rainy and I think my skin sucked all of that up. I got home and forced myself to down a couple glasses of water. Today I am working on rehydrating. I was going to go up to Big Creek for a swim, but I think it is going to be rainy so I might pass and stay home and do a bike on the trainer. I also have a 30 min run to do either before the swim or after the bike. I will see how hard it is raining after work. The rest of this week I am unsure of what workouts I am going to do. I need to get out of my head that I need to do good on Sunday and just train through it, but that is hard for me to do. I need to focus on Kansas in 3 weeks and get myself prepared for that distance. After that is Hyvee which I am unsure of right now of what my strategy will be for that race. After Sunday I will have a better idea. I need to get going following my training plan. I am starting to fall behind on the time. I almost feel like I am starting all over again. I am going to try to get another 45 min run in Thursday and a short one Saturday. Other than that, probably a 3+ hour bike saturday. Going to try to get up early to watch my friends run past my house Saturday for the Dam to Dam and then I will take off on the bike. Friday I will take off for sure because that is my prerace workout plan. Friday off with workouts on Saturday to get everthing loosened up and one last equipment test. Sunday will be nice that is starts at 9, but I don't really want to still be racing at noon. Chance of rain on Sunday which will suck. I will be miserable in the race and then I have to be in the rain on top of that. I like training in the rain, but not racing. It should be a good week if I don't drive myself crazy worrying about this race. Atleast up until Thurday I will be thinking of softball. Last game for the season champion title. Go Where my pitches at? !!!!!!