Goals - revamped and 1st run in 6 weeks

This last week, I have started to become stressed out, unmotivated and just a mess about my training. The thumb injury, the sinus AND ear infection, and my 6th week of not running was taking its toll on me physically and mentally. I felt like I am started to get burnt out on biking and swimming. I feel my season cracking and falling through the cracks. I am so worried about re-injuring my foot, not having enough endurance or time in to do what I want. My first race is in 5 weeks. I am getting nervous and stressed. With the advice of a good friend, I sat down last night and re-wrote my goals for this triathlon season. This was very hard for me to do because you never want to lower your expectations, especially for those of you that know me, I only expect the best. New goals: 1st goal - Finish Ironman Louisville (this is the same and will always remain #1). 2nd Goal - PR Ironman Kansas 70.3. 3rd Goal: Finish Top 15 in my age group at Hyvee Triathlon. 4th Goal: PR Bluff Creek Triathlon. The top and overall goal is to not re-injure myself. As I look at this, these are still pretty high bar expectations of myself, but even if I lower my goal, I would not be happy if I didn't reach these levels. The only one that will be a push for me is a top 15 finish at Hyvee just because I don't know the competition that will be there. It will be a tough race field. I compared my "pre race" time to finish times last year and I should be right around #10 if I finish where I think I can and where everyone else finished last year. I could probably sit down and go through the entire list of entrants and pick out the people I know that will beat me at Hyvee, but who really has that much time and then there are people out there like me, who have worked their ass off and will be a surprise finish there. I am sure there will be several of us. I probably will end back up in the same place I finished last year, lol. I also looked over my return to running plan and my current workout plan and did a little changing around and I feel confident that it will get me through and help me return to running safely. I am still nervous about running 13.1 miles after only being back for 7 weeks. Not the distance, but the distance on my foot. Will it be ready? I sure hope so, but hopefully I will feel more confident when that time gets here. I did do my first run on Sunday. I got a very late start in the day. Around 5pm, I felt like running. It looked like it was going to rain, but I thought it would pass and I would run after it passed, so I waited and waited and waited. The storm was moving to slow, so at 6pm, I got outside. I walked 5 min, ran for 5 and then turned to head back. I was to do 5 more min of walking, but it started to sprinkle so I cut it at 3 min and started to run. Right as I started to run it down poured. I ran in the pouring rain and it was awesome. I really wanted to keep running, but that is ruining my goal of not re-injuring myself so I stopped at 5 min and headed into the house. I felt so great, but can tell I have lost a lot of endurance or it was from staying up until 5am drinking. I am hoping the latter. Monday, I went for a swim followed by a short bike. Still dragging a bit. Last night, I did a short bike and went to the batting cages. It was so much fun. I have not hit a softball in about 4 years. Next year I am getting on a slow pitch team for sure. I need to get out and scout teams that are awesome because I want to be on a good team, but until then, I am going to try to find a team to sub a few games for. Tonight I am back in the pool and then followed by a bike. I wish it would be about 5 degrees warmer out. The temp is right at that temp were my feet freeze and it just becomes a very uncomfortable ride so right now and probably the rest of this week I am stuck on the trainer again. Saturday I am getting outside for my 4:30 bike! Thursday will also be my 2nd run. 3 - 5 min blocks.